This year it's come shortly after my High School Reunion where I caught up with friends who are now mothers, writers, firemen, politicians, etc. and while I don't look at my life and think things like, "Wow, what a waste," I do look at my life and think things like, "Okay, what's next?"
When I was younger I thought by now I'd have a small brood of kids in tow and frankly that plans out the majority of your life for you. It's what I wanted out of life - everything else could line up behind having a family. However, things didn't work out as planned, and while I still plan on having a family, it's become clear that I can't just sit around and let life pass me by while I wait for a positive pregnancy test.
The problem is that I don't know what I want out of life. I don't know where my passion leads me. It's like trying to find a niche for my blog to fit into. It just doesn't come to me.
So I went to trusty Google and found a test on Oprah.com about finding my passion. And even that isn't helping me very much. Maybe because it's hard to look at my life from the inside out, I need perspective. I need you to chime in on some of these questions.
1. When I was a kid, I dreamed of:
- Having a family (being a wife and mother)
- Being an actress
- Being a singer
- Being a veterinarian
- Self Help (book)
- Southern Life (movie)
- Watching TV with my Husband
- Ancient Roman History and Greek Mythology
- Writing fictional stories about the above.
- At Comic Con
- Finishing a new Makeup Look
So you see my problem? I'm missing certain important answers. I need help. When you look at me (or think of me fondly - preferably not naked) how would you answer these questions on my behalf, especially the ones I couldn't answer for myself?
Once I actually get answers, I'll continue with this whole finding myself exercise (see what I did there? You have to participate in order for me to finish this blog series.)
Update: Thank you all for your thoughts and comments (both here, Twitter, Facebook and the very lengthy emails). I have an idea of what direction I want to move in and I am feeling great about it!