Untypically Jia

Monday, April 25, 2011

Love, Yourself - April Update

For those just tuning in, last year I wrote letters to myself that will automatically post on my blog each month throughout the year. It's my way of keeping up with progress and showing myself the difference an entire year can really make. Instead of obsessing on the little things, I'm looking at the big picture.

Yesterday, another letter posted to the blog. And here is the difference that one year can make.

April did come with it's low points. Like remember how you thought for a minute that you might have had a hidden pregnancy and had gone into labor because everything hurt that bad? And then you thought it was uterine fibroids? And then it turned out to be a kidney stone that had you pretty much paralyzed with pain and horror. This is one of the reasons you need to keep drinking good water. Because you had a kidney stone for crying out loud and you just let it be for WAY too long.

I am still drinking water and have cut down on the soda I drink. No more kidney stones! And unlike last year when I refused to go to the doctor for any given reason, I have already gone in the last week and am on the road to balanced health!

This month you were sent an angel. Rachel, your visiting teacher came over and helped you clean. It really got you started on a path that was slowly leading you out of depression. When Rachel helped you clean, you put a bunch of plastic bottles in the closet because you had a plan to use them for something. They are still there. If I haven't thrown them out by the time this letter gets posted, then that's your chore for the day. Go throw those out. You keep the weirdest crap.

The giant paper bag of plastic bottles has been moved from my closet to the porch next to the trash bin and is sitting there waiting to be picked up, as I write this. But yeah . . . that's embarrassing. LOL.

This month you weighed 241 pounds and you were doing so good. I honestly think that if the kidney stone thing hadn't happened, you wouldn't have gained the weight back like you did. You would have kept going.

Due to depression issues and new medication, I have gained some weight from my weigh in last month (which was my lowest weight at 234) but . . . I am still less than what I weighed last year! As of this morning, I am sitting at a proud 239!