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So remember that whole "I'm giving up the internet" thing? Yeah, guess how long that lasted? A week and a half, which to be fair, is pretty much a record in this house. If the power goes out for a split second and my modem won't reconnect immediately I usually begin having panic attacks. But it's back on. I'm home now. I'm here to soothe your very strange needs for personal information about my life, fart jokes and you complete weirdos who have turned my personal love story into the new Twilight. I expect one of you to start selling "Team Matt" and "Team Josh" shirts any day now.
Speaking of you Untypical Addicts, I'll have the new chapter up within a few days. Making some minor adjustments and digging into my old journals, pulling out long repressed memories.
Want to know what I've done in the meantime without the internet? Well you all know that I've taken inspiration from my dear friend Eva.... I've made a promise to myself this year. To be a happier, a livelier, a not so afraid of the world Jia.
"Blondes are wild, brunettes are true,but you never know just what a redhead will do!"
Well this redhead got back to her roots!
I'm living again. I'm Jia again. I'm no longer afraid to paint the town (and my hair) bright red! I wear red lipstick because I demand to be noticed. I am no longer going to hide in the corner of the room. I will dance and sing and make a fool out of myself because it's fun! And I will laugh.
I'm still me. I'm digging up the old me, taking the current me and mixing it into some weird concoction (that by all nature probably should contain liquor) and creating a new me. A beautiful me.
Did you know that it takes a lot for me to think that I'm pretty? I have always had such strange self esteem issues, all associated with my weight of course. But the Flab to Fab weight loss is now over. And I gained two pounds. An injured knee and stress will do that to a girl. But you know what I learned during this process?
I am beautiful. I am gorgeous. I am sexy!
The other girls in the competition were so pretty, despite the fact that they were in a weight loss challenge. So what was wrong with me? How could all these full figured girls, with beautiful faces and curves pull off sexy but I couldn't?
It's all in the mind. And that roadblock is being torn down.
9 comments:
I love the red hair. You look hot!
You're gorgeous.
It took me a very long time to understand this for myself. But once I did I had some real fun and I didn't need alcohol. It's so much fun to be free to show off, to laugh loud to make others laugh because you're having fun. I love it. I was so prissy and correct it's painful to think about.
I don't have beautiful red hair but I got my hairdresser to put in lots of red through to purple highlights. I love it.
Have some fun with your friends.
woooooweeeeee! the red hair is hot!
I think you look awesome Jia :)
Love the red hair!! So bold and brave and beautiful!!
Stopping by from MMB
you are a natural redhead, right? redheads are a rare breed, making up for only a fraction of the world's population. meaning, you are special and beautiful just because you are a redhead.
aside from my black hair, red hair is awesome! :)
You are beautiful and your bright red hair is gorgeous.
you look smokin'! i wasn't brave enough to go bright red when i decided to switch up my hair color a few years ago.. but maybe someday i'll work up the courage and try again. ;) i think you were born to be a redhead.
p.s. I'm a redhead, too! And I LOVE it!
What color does our box of dye say? Mine says, "Paint the Town".
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