This Week I Lost 8 Pounds of Sanity!

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This week was a success in my weight loss journey. Mondays are our official weigh in days, and as of Monday afternoon I have lost a total of 8 pounds in one week. It's a good loss. Most of it is because I simply began eating more often and cutting back on the soda. I stopped drinking soda all together for the first 4 days and they were the most miserable days of my life. My addiction to caffeine is very obvious, and I will wean myself off of my drug of choice slowly this time, instead of punching myself in the face.

8 pounds lost. 

I was shocked.

8 pounds full of sleepless nights, hormones, lack of caffeine and pure sanity lost!

I'm slowly gaining back my sanity and I hope the pounds won't come back.

It's 3:30 in the morning right now and I'm awake because I took a five hour nap today because I'm in pain. I've mentioned before that the pain I've been having is about 95% certain to be caused by uterine fibroids. I didn't even know what they were until I researched enough of my symptoms. Even know it's hard to talk about. Anytime I'm in pain and Matt asks what's wrong I reply with, "The thing." and he seems to understand. Other people ask how I've been (and why I haven't been at Church recently) and it's hard to say aloud. It feels embarassing. I don't like talking about my organs. Especially since people don't generally know what I'm talking about and the need to explain is even more embarassing.

"Yes, I haven't been in public recently because I have uterine fibroids."

"Oh I'm so sorry, what exactly are those?"

"Oh they're these little bastards that wedge themselves inside and around my uterus, occasionally grinding my bladder into my pelvic bone, scraping up against my ovaries and pinching my kidneys and intestines."

Not a fun conversation.

I've created a diagram for those who don't get the full picture:

A normal, happy functioning body

My Body

You can't tell from this angle, but my organs are all screaming, "Rape!" at this point.

I'm pretty sure that fibroids don't have large sharp spikes all over them (or satanic beards) but it's easier to get my point across that way.

Right now nothing helps. The symptoms are often different. One a good day the least I'll need to do is take some ibuprofen and put a heating pad on my abdomen for a few hours. On bad days I pray to God and then take Advil PM and hope that when I wake, the pain will be gone.

Thankfully though, supposedly losing weight will help balance out my hormones and may shrink the fibroids.

So 8 pounds down.

YOU HEAR THAT BODY!?

I'm so not your bitch.

You're my bitch.

And if you keep talking crap to me, I will totally eff you up with some cardio tomorrow.