Each stretch mark on my body is a scar that goes deeper than skin can really show. They remind me that usually only pregnant women get them, and I am still no one's mother. The extra pounds on my stomach remind me of the good experiences I've had eating out with family and friends. Dates that Matt and I have been on. Birthdays and Anniversaries celebrated over steak. But they also remind me of all the times I've turned to food to ease stress. Times when I've come to terms with my weight only to be torn down by a friend, family member or complete stranger. Days when visits to the doctor meant being told that everything wrong with me is my own doing.
It is an uphill battle for me that goes far beyond being over weight.
I've never been able to do this before.
So I need help.
I need your support. I need friends, readers, family (and you are all my family) to cheer me on, because I need it. For as many people over my life who have teased me for my weight, I'll need at least two others to help build me back up during this process.
It's not about a prize at the end, because this journey will go beyond 8 weeks. This is about my life.
So I'm asking for help.
Check out my Flab to Fab blog where I will be writing about my experience and vlogging through this process. Yesterday was a good day, today was a bad day. I will be open there as I am here.
And always, bare foot.
8 comments:
It's a difficult road ahead - both mentally and physically - but I have total confidence that you can do it. You can do hard things - you have before and you will now! Remember what you've achieved in the past and let that strengthen you for the future!
I know you can do this! You've accepted to change for yourself and no one else. That's a huge step! You want to be the healthiest you can be and I'm here with you every step of the way!
Good luck to you on your challenge. As the pounds (I want to say melt but that implies it's easy and it's NOT!) go away you will feel better and better. That in itself will be encouraging..... love your blog - just found it.
Jia, if there is anyone who understands that our blubber is more than just fat- it's me. Seriously. That has been one of my biggest struggles throughout my entire journey. The idea that fat is my safety- it keeps me from really achieving what I should or could- and allows me to be content with hiding at home.
You took a big risk, getting into this contest. You decided to step out from behind the computer screen and get real. If no weight is lost in week one, you still have a huge victory notch in your belt. You opened up in a very real way. And that makes you a success. I love you.
Hugs!!!
I am feeling so optimistic and happy for you! You have taken on a hard challenge, and even further allowing yourself to be publicly held accounable.
I admire you and am cheering you EVERY DAY!
You can definitely do this!
Oh, and with the stretch mark thing, it's actually most women, pregnant or not, who get them. I might know one woman who doesn't get stretchmarks. Even skinny women have them!
Jia, you need to update your F2F page - let us know how you've been doing! Don't stay quiet, whatever's going on - we all love you and support you. Please don't give up! You can get discouraged - it's normal - but find that fighter in you and let her out!
And it may sound corny slash weird, but you're in my prayers.
I just found your blog, and I've only read back a couple of pages, but you're pretty clearly awesome. So I have faith that though this'll be hard, you can do it.
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