One Day Can Make a Difference

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I hadn't written much in a long time so I finally got out the old poetry book and started going at it. This was written on Valentines Day of 2002 after the guy I was currently dating on and off. He was not of my faith and that fact tore our relationship apart. It was very difficult and painful . . . thankfully I've healed since then and can appreciate it for what it was.


One Day Can Make a Difference (2002)

Entering in a new life
Looking on the past
Searching out for a new start
Finding one at last

Reaching deep into my heart
Keep safe of such a thing
Locked away into a safe
But still there on a string

Just because a heart is hidden
Does not mean that it's not there
And just because I told him so
Doesn't mean I didn't care

Love was just a mystery
Though times it was a gift
Love was just past relived
Love is now a myth

Dropped like rain against the stones
Harder now than ever
But then I came right back again
To be thrown down forever

Moments in a sudden bliss
Painful knowing lies
Lost within a longing kiss
Full of night-long cries

I never thought I'd fall in love
Once again and more
I never knew what was hidden
Behind the new found door

Truth was leaking out of me
I never knew I would
Love again in such short time
But then I wished I could

Days flew by, I lost myself
Within my hideaways
Releasing only anger
In such painful ways

I never thought I'd fall in love
And in love I'd be still
I never thought I'd be so weak
To give in at his will

I never thought that I'd hurt
More than I had before
I love him still, that what makes this
Hurt just a little more

I know it was not intentional
But it hurts either way
Though we both try to hold each other
We know we cannot stay

A single kiss turned into more
Then as days flew by
A broken heart has shattered now
And I can't even cry

So much faith in both our lives
Light within our faces
I can't believe that one same God
Can lead us different places

Guilt is reaping in my soul
Though we did not sin
We have lied to our hearts
For neither will give in

Words cannot express here now
How much one can hurt
All because we have our faith
And neither will convert

It is just so overwhelming
All this love and pain adorns
And I'm still holding bleeding palms
For every rose has it's thorns

The funny thing is that my faith
Grows stronger everyday
I know I cannot leave my God
I know I'll never stray

But still inside I long for him
To hold me in his arms
For in those moments that he did
I was always safe from harm

I pray to God every day
To help me bring the light
I pray for strength in all I do
Throughout the day and night

Tears are dripping down my face
Watching the rising sun
Knowing I can't shake the thought
"He could have been the one."

Yesterday he cared for me so
I felt it in his kiss
Now we both are left here bleeding
Never forgetting this:

That neither of us imagined that
We were playing with such a high stake
But now I know, what a difference
A single day can make.