That is how I'm feeling towards the hubby right now. He's fast asleep, and I haven't been able to close my eyes at all. I've literally been watching him sleep, rubbing on his back, running my hands through his hair, snuggling up on him and even smelling his shirts since 3am!
I have no idea what has come over me, but I'm totally intoxicated with him right now. And it's not a sexual thing. I'm just overwhelmed with a need for him.
Maybe it's because we've literally spent every waking moment together this past week being sick in bed together, and tomorrow he's going back to work and I'll miss him. Yes, for 9 hours, I'm going to miss him like crazy.
I used to feel like this all the time when we were teenagers. What happened? When did I decide to not be this much in love with him on a daily basis? This man I married was literally my dream guy! In high school he was the boy that I said, "Man, if I were the luckiest girl in the world, he'd want me." I dated other guys, dreaming about this boy. And I married him!
So now that I'm sitting here watching him sleep I feel bad for ever complaining that he snores.
Now that I'm rubbing on his back I feel bad for saying no to any time he's ever asked me to.
Now that I'm running my hands through his hair I feel bad for nagging him to get a haircut.
Now that I'm snuggling up on him I feel bad for every time I've ever pushed him away.
Now that I'm smelling his shirts, clinging to his scent, I feel bad for every time I bitterly complained over doing laundry.
It's funny what thoughts pop into your head hmm?
I think with this new and positive year, we should all be appreciating these men more and more. We married them for a reason right? We should try to spend more time remembering what those reasons were, and how we felt back then, and how we really should feel now.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have more of sleeping hubby to be watching for another 4 hours or so.
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